What Are You Thankful For?

The past couple weeks have been so crazy, I haven’t had a chance to write. Strep throat has been going around my house and I’m the latest victim. So we’ve all been in rest and recovery mode and it has given me a little more perspective.

I’ve learned so much since becoming a stepmom. If I’m being honest, it is the most difficult thing I’ve ever learned, and continue to learn. It really makes me appreciate my own mother that much more. Sure, I’ve always known she’s a beast but I didn’t KNOW until I was walking in these shoes.

Not until I was cleaning up puke on the floor because my kid was sick.

Not until I was running a fever and dead on my feet but still gotta make sure the kids are fed and taken care of.

Not until I’m answering the tough questions or talking them through a rough day at school.

Not until I’m teaching them about responsibility and navigating those big emotions.

Becoming a mom has been a journey, especially when thrown into the lives of a 6 year old and 3 year old with no real idea what I’m doing. Now, it’s been a few years and I’ll always be learning. And while I wouldn’t change my journey into motherhood, sometimes I do feel like I’m lacking. Whether it’s because I don’t have that biological connection or just because I’m afraid of being a bad parent, it’s hard telling. What I do know is that I have an amazing support system that I thank my lucky stars on every day. It makes those insecurities just a little less daunting.

And on top of that, I thank the universe a little extra that I have my mama in my back pocket for guidance.